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tma 120 "eye contact"
blood, body horror, self-harm, insect infestation, worms, burned alive, buried alive, direct violence, police, police violence
i wanna be like jonathan sims and get paid for having my parents insulting me in public
and now to listen to fuckass elias bouchard ramble for 23 whole minutes
unresponsive :(
everything but brain-dead is crazy
was antonio blake like this
anatomy class? :o
tessa?
daisy? did daisy get coffined for real?
is this "if you missed previous episodes"?
my jon :(
how was this guy called? jordan?OMG I GOT IT RIGHT
ohh wait this are only the ones we got narrated direct from subject
omg hi jane! been a while
and that's jude, yay
who are we missing? naomi and that's it?
let me just.
in order, we have -> anatomy class, binary, skintight?, police lights, the smell of blood, hard shoulder, underground, the new door, pest control, hive/infestation, twice as bright
and we are missing naomi, basira's first statement?, julia?, gerry? and sasha? idk
MY SOURCES (tumblr user fullmetalmind) HAS TOLD ME ANTONIO BLAKE HAS BEEN SPOTTED BEFORE so we are gonna finish this and then we are gonna go on an egg hunt to find him
okay, we have nightfall
and alone?
wait im gonna go on the egg hunt now because imagine elias finishes the statement with "btw and this guy was blablabla" i will kms
data i have on antonio blake:
not native to london but lives there
studied economics
worked in barclays
dated graham folger for six years, therefore he is a queer man
he has a friend called anahita wait
has premonitory lucid dreams (they seem to start at canary wharf)
went on to work for an esoteric shop
his father died of heart failure of 31st dec 2014
didn't know the archive before hand
based on my sources he appears more than once
okay now. for the hunt.
haha i have no idea how to go about this
let me play my tunes
(the tunes in question)
okay the problem is that i have two separate lists of characters and not all of them are complete but let's see what we can do
also lol completely forgot about mike's statement
either way
list of men that could fit this stuff:
ohhh he's oliver, right?
i have seen the name around and i kept being "we dont have any oliver" but
I sold crystals. They were clean, and sharp and bright and they did not sing to me, though I sometimes said they did. We would sell the stones to smiling young couples with colour in their hair. I remember, before I found the nest, someone new came. His name was Oliver, and he would look at me so strangely.
let me see if i can find a second name
i do have an oliver in my first list but i have him as client rather than selling because i must have misunderstood the "someone new came in" as him being a regular
well
whatever
i am very happy with this finding ^______^
elias you can keep going
are you allowed to do this in hospital visits
oh he's not at the hospital right he's watching
"without my guidance"? because you are gonna leave forever? :3
yeah don't you dare
well.
daisy dying was like the best outcome tbh
OMG YAY
the crime of being an asshole
well done martin
yeah that's because you give 0 shits about martin
also is the background noise supposed to be an eye opening and closing bc it is positively disgusting
pick me ahh criminal
the police officer is so done
"i shall be thinking of them" kys
YES KICK HIM
"i see" sadly you do
why is he here for the love of everything that's holy
NO ONE IS GONNA FUCKING CALL YOU PETER
he is 30 can we stop acting like he's useless just because he is a nice guy
oh right ceo vacancy
hell no
no
the devil that you know is better than the devil that you don't ig
well this one can be killed without consequences at least
paid therapy at least
i hate this fella
either way fun season
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pretty little girl.
| ★ warnings ; no warnings, just sexy ahh fluff
| ★ a/n ; ive been working on this for a long time. and i literally forgot about popsicles. that’s coming out 2 hours after this
it’s midday in california. the beach house is warm, sunlight pouring through the windows, waves crashing soft in the distance.
billie’s hanging upside down off the bed, laughing as she plays with the two grey puppies you adopted together.
one’s named shark. billie picked that—said it fit the little pit mix with his stubby shark teeth and silvery coat. the other’s gio, named by you, because he’s clumsy and sweet and always bumping into walls. if any dog were to wear prescription glasses, it’d be him.
billie’s been waiting for you to get home. not because she’s bored—just because she wants to cook dinner, pull you onto the couch, and hold you so close you couldn’t escape if you tried.
she hears the front door shut, the jingle of your keys. her whole face lights up. she scoops the dogs into her arms and runs downstairs.
“baby?” she calls, already halfway down.
“hi, sweet girl,” you whisper, meeting her with a soft kiss. she sets the puppies down and kneels to help you take your shoes off.
“how was work?” she asks gently, sliding your shoes onto the rack like it’s the most important thing in the world.
“it was… something,” you sigh, reaching down to pet shark and gio. “sweet boys,” you murmur, then look at her, brushing your hand against her cheek. “sweet girl.”
“i love you,” billie says, kissing your cheek.
“i love you more, m’kay?” you whisper back, pulling her close. she doesn’t say anything—just leads you to the couch, turns off the lights, and wraps herself around you like she knows exactly how bad the day has been.
she always knows. even before you say a word. she can tell when you’re about to cry, and she hugs you so tightly the stress melts out of your bones.
“baby?” she asks softly, her hand on your knee, now straddling your lap.
“you want me to make dinner? or should we get takeout?”
“can i cook with you?” you ask, hopeful.
she shakes her head. “just relax. don’t move a muscle.”
“but—“ you start to protest again, already trying to get back up. she lays a gentle finger on your lips and shushes your, the look in her eyes is blue and beautiful, the eyes of a girl thats in love and would do anything for you.
she shook her head again and got up leaving you there with a nice soft blanket.
she gets up and walks to the kitchen, you watch her precise movements and the way she cuts the food—carefully making sure not to cut herself.
she hums quietly while cooking, focused on making the food as good as possible. the tune of the song sounds like your favorite song, she always knew your songs and what kind of music you like.
you love that she knows you—not just the surface stuff, but the little things. the quiet details no one else ever really noticed.
not because you told her all at once, but because she watched. paid attention. remembered.
and you love her for that—more than words can say.
after a few minutes she heads back towards you, with the plate of food in hand. “small bites,” she says, placing the food in your lap with a fork being handed to you and sitting beside you again. “you usually dont finish all your food.”
her voice is sweet but knowing, like she’s memorized every one of your habits. and maybe she has.
“thank you baby.” you mumur, taking a bite of your food the soft mashed potatoes melt on your tongue, the rich feeling of the macaroni and cheese. the chicken being perfectly tender and easy to pull.
always such a good cook, such a good girlfriend, will be a extra special wife.
@billiesmainwife @bilswifee @st0nerlesb0
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capitalism really popped off with DAWs (digal audio workstations)
#I'm just discouraged right now#the program that I used to love making music on#is fucking 80€ at least#and that version is limited#each daw I look into is between 200~700€#that should not be human#the free ones you can find have so far made me cry more than I made music#I hate reaper. I just hate it.#this one is on me for falling in love with the workfloq of a specific daw#I just want to make music#this industry is fucked#the free stuff is too niche or hard to find#and the paid stuff... dont get me started#there's no reason why people should have to pay hundreds for each plugin sample daw and instrument they have to use#I'm just crying rn let me be#I just want this to work#it gets me thinking... maybe I should just give up?#it's not like I was making songs and bangers on the other daw#maybe it's just me. maybe I just suck. maybe I should give up on a dream based on delusion and tarot cardsm#but then what's left of me? what do I do with my life?#¿ cheri talk .ᐟ
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i usually mostly do like portraits with zero(0) background and things like that so why i decided to just like. try to make a wide shot with mostly background work is beyond me but. i feel like i could do it like i have a vision i just know next to nothing ab perspective or composition but the vibes are there
#also its nine pm and im experiencing levels of exhaustion not yet known to man#does that even makes sense im struggling to string together sentences in english ugh#im already ao bad at communicating in my first language and now ive got to try to get my point across in a language that i learned through#like reading which. okay but like#that made me good enough in middle school so i just#never paid attention to any of them grammar rules so now when im#unable to just like sus out the correct way to say stuff i cant even like try to consult my grammar knowledge#CUZ THERES NONE NOOOONE#how did i get through high school english idk cuz wow. like woww#and dont let me start with the autocorrect??? i can barely spell#always so surprised when i manage to spell stuff correctly on the first try when im on thr pc cuz#theres no autocorrect there like not like its above the keyboard on da phone#god bless that btw cuz i take ageees to type stuff out so it comes in soo handy#i fee like ive got real clumsy fingers#and weird finger nails…#the sharp fingernails i gave siren marc are actually just mine cuz i used a ooc of my hands for reference#anyways
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I love evil snap
evil snap needs to be put in time out he's fucking up my file history
#snap chats#I HAVE SFW COMICS I WANTED TO WORK ON GO AWAY YOU GOBLIN THERES JUST DICK AND BALLS HERE#im trying to make it a rule for myself i only work on nsft stuff on the weekends or something#whichi.. is when i have the most free time.. i am nOT setting myself up to do sfw stuff 😭#its not my fault i finally have a place to store all my nsft comics and doodles that ive been hoarding in my brain for months#I LITERALLY JUST HAD A POLL CONCLUDE ON WHICH NSFT THING ID WORK ON NEXT#WHICH. i was supposed to start today.... oops.....#ugh maybe ill sketch that out tomorrow and then work on ... oh wait my job jeLVKVJAELK#THE DRAWINGS I WAS PAID TO FINISH I HAVE TO WORK ON THOSE LMAOOOOOOO#you know whats foul tho i gotta drive my mom to the airport at 4AM tomorrow. why does she hate me#i tell her to get an uber and she gets all snippy with me Oh Im Sorry i dont wanna DRIVE. at FOUR IN THE MORNING#whatever.... we move on..
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At my break at work straight up "doing it" and by "it" haha, well, let's just say. Looking at state labor laws and jobs that are hiring that I'm qualified for this summer because my job just illegally (I'm fairly certain) shortened our breaks and continues to do illegal firing practices and not adhering to the state labor laws, child labor laws, or disability laws
#and i'm still getting paid minimum wage when most other stores in the area pay above minimum wage.....#like i enjoy my job but they keep making the conditions harder and pulling illegal stuff#i could earn WAY more by working at a restaurant and get tips once the tourist season hits#but i hate change and new jobs make me so anxious so i dont want to start over unless its unbearable
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begging on my hands and knees please pb stop killing your own game its getting quiet in hereeee

#cliffnotes/.txt#whb#its like#yeah once again i get its a small company#but the way players keep dropping bc of how hostile/predatory its already gotten with paid content#im not going anywhere any time soon but man#ITS AGGRAVATING TO SEE IM SAD ABT IT#like i said when this started in like december its just#it feels like they jumped the gun way too early#no gacha is ever gonna be player friendly i get that too but like#usually they stwrt easing up on f2p content into more paid stuff later#game launched in what october? its april#only half a year and the way i keep seeing less and less is fr sad#and like ik im just a player i dont have the answer but like#if the focus switched from pay for characters to some of the other stuff that was supposed to be implemented by now#text chats/ the seraphim dungeons/ hell even the friends feature#like theres been no word on any of that and im just pulling from the promises announcement made in january#pools already feeling oversaturated for l cards#and its just. it gets real empty feeling real fast now it feels like nothing was rly. planned well if you get me#but idk#its just upsetting to see smthn dying this fast#i wanna have hope but ehhhh...#i rly do wanna wait it out bc im not like a super devoted pb fan#but i found love unholyc when the pandemic first was kicking my ass bc going from being on campus and-#being out all day with friends to being stuck at home was...tough#and the games janky but i liked the chars#same with whb#so like. augh
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Store managers said even a few minutes overtime will be a write up
I'm calling bullshit
#i work in a fucking deli you think im getting everything i need cleaned in exactly 2 hours?#on a slow day yes bc guess what im not helping customers til 8#but on days like today where we have a sale? and are pretty busy??? fuck no#and! itd be so much easier if we could shut things down even just slightly early (even 30 min could help)#but nooooooo#wednesday when i close imma shut down one of the slicers at like fuckin. 5. (start earlier) cause thats what slows me down#after 8 when i gotta sharpen then clean them all on top of putting food away. collecting dishes. wiping down counters and scales#wiping glass. the wing bar. the whole bird case. sweep. spray the floor. scrub it. then push all the water into drains#or idk do very quick cleanings of the slicers. SOMETHING to speed it up by 8#if i somehow do get a write up im gonna call up my union rep and see if a literal few minutes overtime to finish cleaning is fine#bc its either a few minutes overtime or some shit don't get done (like my cook today didnt get to do her floors cause she was#cooking until 7 and it takes a while to clean the fryers on top of all the other dishes. machines. counters and WALLS. and the back floors!)#my coworkers have claimed the union does jack shit and maybe thats true. or. there is a chance they just werent fucking annoying about stuff#cause like. i get it the store doesnt wanna pay overtime. then it should give enough time for us to PROPERLY do our job#otherwise itll be half-assed and people will get written up for THAT instead#and id get it if theyre annoyed if youre like. 20+ minutes overtime#but fucking 5 minutes? or even just 1 (as manager warned/threatened)???? if i do get overtime for those minutes i guarantee its barely#anything considering i get paid 15.50 an hour#anyways. im pissed off. and skipping asl tomorrow even if i risk the administrative drop#im skipping the day of that deadline but my grades are decent (a B that I can turn to an A so long as I don't miss more assignments)#so im not too worried. if my professor asks i will say i was incredibly sore (true. my arm/shoulders/back/legs/feet hate me rn)#as well as exhausted (also true. i got home at 10:30 its currently 11 and im wound up so i definitely wont be getting to sleep for a while#and i dont fancy trying to do asl on like. 5 or less hours of sleep with a sleep-and-magnesium (i forgot to take the vitamin) deprived brain#anywho hope yall have a better night 👍#amber's shit you can ignore
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i hate the binge model actually. its one thing for me to sit down and, of my own volition, watch 8 hours worth of television on my day off but having shows drop half or whole seasons in a single day and then being expected to have watched them in their entirety in that first 24 hours if you dont want to be spoiled everywhere you look is just insane
#more personal rant in the tags#so i have 2 jobs and one of them is writing like i dont get paid much but i do get paid#but it comes with this expectation that i am watching EVERYTHING the moment it comes out#qnd i can keep up with a lot#but like wheel of time just started s2 qnd they dropped 3 hour long episodes the first day#and babe i just dk not have the time to watch all 3 on top of the many other shows im already keeping up with#i watched all of heartstopper s2 in a day qnd couldnt even enjoy it cause it felt like qn obligation#obviously it being work influences how i engage w it but ive had a TON of fun writing about shows that didnt stress me out#idk im just tired i liked the breathing room and the hype that came with weekly releases if they wanna be cable 2.0 anyway#might as well bring back some of the good stuff and not just the shit#shut up em
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..now i just gotta convince myself im gonna be okay money-wise lol
#i should be. i havent exceeded my budget terribly with anything yet. all bills etc are paid so i dont have to worry#i just remembered that i gotta book a taxi to take my cat to the sitter next week tho so that'll cost me a hand ough but its fine#EVERYTHINGS FINE i'll just stress over everything when i get back i guess. cause then i WILL start stressing for sure :)#anyways. have stuff to look forward to next week. oh boy london is so close mmmmm#night is an absolute mess on main
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curse be upon ye:
crush on sourcemates
#vox talks#god help me please i am not ok#can we not? can i not?#it all starts with one bit of ship related content and it all goes downhill#like okay maybe my friendship did seem more like a crush but leave me alone#let me treasure the gift he sent me in peace platonically#stupid crush i dont want to feel like a giddy highschooler i GRADUATED /source#introject#did system#system stuff#but incoming spoiler alert his crush isnt already in sys and wouldnt be with any of the coll friends#in the tone of love loses vox loses#or do i lose idk#IM NOT PAID ENOUGH TO CRUSH ON MY STUPID INTERNET FRIEND WHO I DIDNT GET TO SEE IN PERSON OK#breathes in and exhales heavily#its nearly 4 am i should be sleeping#thank you ritz crackers for sponsoring my crashout
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Ugh, what do you mean I have to work at my job I have 18 fics to write
#personal#I GOT 2 WHOLE FICS DONE and one was 1300 words which is a lot for my ADD brain lol#I am starting to build them up tho is an issue lol#I normally don’t have a backload this big normally I write edit and post on the spot#I have like 7 fics I haven’t posted AND I LOVE THEM ALL SO WHICH ONE DO I PICK#And even then I may wait another day or soooo#even tho these people will hate me anyway for posting too much#which is why I just brrr sometimes and usually in the case where I do it all in one sitting#post one fic sat then one sun ect#WELL I DONT WANNA DO BORING STUFF ON#MY GRAVEYARD SHIFT I WANNA WRITE 80 fics and play Zelda!#😤!#And then when it’s time for me to do my actual job it’s like boooooooo#I prefer babysitting the building lol#make sure nothing explodes but it usually doesn’t so freee time for 4 ish hours#THE FEW TIMES STUFF DO EXPLODE THO im like damm why am i not getting paid the good graveyard shift pay#no normal person wants this job 😂#Been a while since I rambled on tumblr#I do miss it but there’s not really anyone here XD#my bf is on twitter so he’ll like all my rambles 🥺🤧💕🩷
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no sims 5 . guys im gonna
#UGHHHH . like. i get theyre planning on just updating the sims 4 for fucking ever but like. i feel like its such a shit base and theres only#so much you can do#its been running for 10 years atp like.#idk man i was hoping for sims 5 bad bc i wanted to just have it be like. Well made from the start and like. i hate the current way packs r#structured and if its gonna stay sims 4 thats gonna continue to be the standard. ughhhhh.#also idk how i feel abt cc kits like. i like tht the creators will be paid for work and that console players can have cc or whatever but#idk . i already dont particularly like Kits i think like. idk.... i kinda wish the cc kits would just be free but the creators Obviously r#still played. or have something similar to like#is it like. bethesda i think has its own mod thing that works on console.. itd be nice to have something like that instead#but also ig asking ea to maintain an online gallery of any sort is sort of asking to be disappointed LOL#idk man. im just bummed.... i feel like itd be better to just. leave ts4 behind and if they rly want to Divert from linear sims games they#should like#Make a game that's BUILT for that like. a sturdy foundation that would make ppl want to keep playing so long. idk..#and also like..so many features i personally would want in a sims 5 arent like. things that could be updated in ts4#like we arent gonna ever get open neighborhoods like ts3#and i get those were laggy for a lot of ppl but i honest to goodness feel like it could be optimized and fixed#But. that would be work for ea DJFNFJFN so. wtvr#sry. i try to be like. charitable ik the actual sims team work hard and stuff but it feels like nothing is given the time it needs to be#fully thought out..#also like. 1. i dont think ea would have Paid fixes for their jank ass game which is one of the biggest benefits of mods#at least id hope they wouldnt thatd be disgusting. but like. i feel like a sizable subset of mod benefits is the fixes#like. whenever a new pack drops there are immediately 500 fixes for it in order for it to be At all functional or enjoyable 😭😭😭 idk ..#not that. idk ig it only said Creator focused kits so itll probably mostly be cas stuff anyway. but idk man... just a bit hrm to me#ig that does make sense. bc having gameplay mods or anything like that i dont think like. idk if ea would do patches for it or if theyd have#the creator do patches or what#idkidkidk. im just very .#also sims movie i dont careee im fucking sick of like. videogame franchise movies stop it. ik i dont have to see it i just think its lame.#and also im still mad abt the mc movie yeah.
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my job has so many slow moments of nothing i swear my brain is turning to mush from all the screen time
#dont get me wrong#getting paid to sit around is lovely#but it gets to a point when its multiple days in a row and theres barely anything to do#i have like 3 hours left before i gotta do closing stuff#gotta find ways to entertain myself in the mean time#tumblr has been a big way to pass time#i need to get back into reading#i also will play this type racer game that tracks ur wpm - im at an average of 87 rn#and i started playing this knock off geo guesser#if not any of that im on insta or tiktok#personal
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Every now and then I remember that oni in fact will eventually have more lore added and I get so excited and scared for a moment and then I remember that it could take months until we see any of that and I proceed to forget abt it again and the cycle repeats
#rat rambles#oni posting#now it does sadden me a smidge that itll probably be in paid dlc but thats a problem for future me#the bright side of new lore is new lore#the downside of new lore is the eternal fear of canon jackie and olivia designs#not because Im opposed to them getting canon designs its just so scary#like what if klei made them white how would I move forward from that#and its not even a situation where I can say with any level of confidence if they would or not because god if I fucking know#like they have until very recently seemingly deliberately avoided including anything Too lore relevant in any animated trailers#but that can kind of just be explained by well. the fact that most of those updates didn't include any lore.#and those that do involve it stay strictly in the dupes perspective#so I can't rly use that as any sign that theyre deliberately avoiding giving olivia and jackie canon designs#I would highly prefer they dont get designs even without fear of designs I dislike mostly because narratively it just works better that way#but hey its not up to me so whatever happens happens#I mostly assume future lore is going to mostly relate to the dupe donors we havent met yet and elaborating on some of the ones we have seen#but dont see a lot of if anything at all#I hope they dont mess with jackie and olivia too much but I do think itd be nice to give jackie just a smidge more like Ive talked abt#and other than that I could see them adding maybe new story traits and if they're feeling real generous more dupe lore#oh and if we're mega lucky we could get a dr.holland first name#honestly I hope that for dr.holland specifically they either just do a hard name drop and move on or just dont touch him#rly my main concern with any added oni lore is I Really dont want them to start telling us too much#I really really like all of our information being very fragmented and unclear as it adds to the post end of the world vibe rly well#and this is in fact a problem that they had in older versions of the story that they seemingly went out of their way to solve#so I rly want to have faith that they wont fuck it up but I have been burned before and oni has yet to have fully earn my trust#its not far off tho just the scrapped logs themselves give me faith that they are aware what story theyre writing and what needs done#again the scrapped logs are cool but would have dampened the narrative quite significantly from how straight forward they are#so them being full one scrapped early on makes me hopeful that they realized that too#rly I just dont want too much expansion on the stuff we already know#some names and work ids would be splendid and Im all for new fragments to try to place in the timeline#I just dont want a log where nikola stares at the camera and monologues abt the duplicant project or smth
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ah heem heem......
#literally my boss called me into her office and was like 'if you have anything to say tell me now'#'if we start the investigation and find anything we have to fire you'#and i was like 'you know me. you know that i have never taken anything and never paid for it.'#ive taken stuff and paid for it later that day or the next day#but NEVER?? no#i love this stupid job why would i steal from it#and in her defense she did say that there was no bad blood and we were okay#but like that means that if she sees something weird its like 'nothing personal youre fired'#i literally know she WONT fiind anything weird. thats the point. i didnt do anything#but it makes me feel suspicious and that me saying i didnt do anything is an admission of uilt#guilt#aand the more upset and nervous i get the less believable i seem#which makes me MORE UPSET AND NERVOUS#and i told a coworker about it and they really were acting like i did it#like BITCH IVE KNOWN YOU FOR YEARS YOU THINK I DID IT???#have i stolen before?? did i used to steal all the time and just dont remember???#what if i took something once and was like 'yeah i'll pay for it later tonight' and forgot and now its gonna cost me my job#because heres the thing#that VERY WELL couldve happened#my adhd is a fucking bad i very well couldve done that#she picked the perfect time to accuse me of this to retaliate too#last month we lost a lot of money at our snack market#which indicates a lot of theft#and i live here so it'd be easy for me to do#that doesnt mean i did it tho#god this is so upsetting#and this is gonna be a no news is good news situation bc i dont imagine they'll call me in and be like#'we went over months of footage and you have been found NOT guilty! :D'#like no if they dont find anything they'll just never bring it up again#but like that means im gonna be waiting for the other shoe to drop for the rest of the time im working here
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